Friday, May 14, 2010

Ramblings on Mother's Day

I spent last Mother's Day semi-pregnant. I was in that stage of being pregnant, but not really. If that makes any sense? My betas were increasing but not like they should. 99 --> 163 --> 230. It was pure torture. I knew it wasn't going to work, but the Dr. still gave me hope and I hung on to that with everything I had in me. If I had taken a pregnancy test it would have said "pregnant" or given me two lines or whatever but things weren't chugging along like they should have been.

It was a day I was dreading and it took everything I had in me to get through it. You know those days where if you cry that morning, it's easy to cry the rest of the day? That's how that day was. I had already cried that morning and then when we went to celebrate all the Moms, I was on the verge of tears the whole time. Ugh.

This Mother's Day was different. Yes I got cards and well wishes and all that good stuff, but I felt something even greater. When we got home that night, I felt a little flutter in my tummy--like something brushed up against my insides. I have never felt such a thing and even though it was brief, it was so neat. I remember thinking, "There you are. Thank you."

On a side note, I'm going to try really hard to not make this blog Baby Central. I am thrilled even though it still has not sunk in 100%. I still have not had any sickness. A few headaches now and then, emotions that I never expected (seriously, who cries at an On Star radio commercial?), and being tired. I will not be finding out what we are having until November. I don't care what we have. I am just grateful for this baby and can't think of a greater surprise in the world that is so worth the wait than finding out if a little boy or girl will be joining our family this Fall.

That's about all friends. I apologize for the delay in blogging. Our Simply Sassy business keeps me pretty busy and combined with work, there just isn't much time for anything else. Guess I need to work on that a lil' better!

1 comment:

AF Recruiters Wife said...

It's almsot a bittersweet joy, isn't it... I hated mothers day this year. But, what an amazing gift your little one gave you this year. A little nudge to remind you that you are a mother!